A thrilling memoir by The White Lotus and Euphoria actor, Lukas Gage, which chronicles his upbringing in a broken family, struggles with borderline personality disorder, and his commitment to always being the centre of attention.

Lukas Gage was having one of the shittiest weeks of his life. Not only was his beloved grandmother dying across from the building where, months prior, Lukas had grappled with the dissolution of his marriage, but he was also forced to sit next to his mostly absent, tit-obsessed father the entire time.

Naturally, Lukas did the smartest thing anyone can do in a crisis of death, divorce and daddy issues: doom scroll to see what random people on the internet were saying about him. People were calling him an attention whore – and they were absolutely right. As a toddler, he set his room on fire. As a child, he flirted with women at Hooters to his father’s delight. As a teen he fell hopelessly in love with a girl who wore an ankle monitor. He became an actor and filmed that scene in The White Lotus (if you know, you know). Lukas was scared of attention and yet he craved it more than anything in the world.

I Wrote This for Attention is an exquisite memoir that details Lukas’ coming of age in the haunting underbelly of San Diego. Capturing universal anxieties – of transitioning from innocence to adulthood, of feeling too much and nothing at all, of sex and death, of fame and familial strife, of drug abuse and Raya – this book is a remarkable achievement of healing, vaping through therapy sessions and having the courage to forgive the family that hurt you.