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  • When Silence is Safer in Mormonism
    Jul 10 2025
    Church is meant to be a place of comfort, solace and peace. However, when a church controls their members using fear and manipulation, even when someone didn't do anything wrong, such as a survivor of SA, it creates extreme issues of safety for that person. Today we speak with Kris Hillberg who was given a disciplinary council and disfellowshipped from the LDS faith for a brutal attack when she was only 18 years old. There is so much to discuss when it comes to feeling safe to report, when there is truly no support system for what the LDS church would consider "sins". Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the full deep dive episode with Kris here Find Kris on IG @kristjana_hillberg Check out her Podcast called "I F*cking Knew" We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 5 minutos
  • 5 Mishandled SA Cases the Mormon Church Doesn’t Want You to Know About
    Jul 10 2025
    Daily Mail article written by Miles Dilworth, exposes 5 cases of SA that were grossly mishandled by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. In doing so, it clearly presents a pattern that illustrates the LDS church cares more about its reputation and its image than it does its members' safety and wellbeing. We will discuss what the article presents about each case and our thoughts as it pertains to cults and mind control manipulation. Click to watch on YouTube Link to article pinned in the youtube comments. Live with Kolby Reddish discussing in depth the Arizona case mentioned We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    38 minutos
  • Mormon Church SUED for Not Reporting Unspeakable Confessions (the Verdict) ft. Kolby Reddish
    Jul 10 2025
    Going in depth with former guest and current lawyer Kolby Reddish to further discuss and understand how the LDS church got away with protecting a C S A offender for years. Click here to watch on YouTube Check out our interviews with Kolby: Mormonism On Trial: Ex-Mormon Lawyer Challenges Truth Claims How a Mormon Lawyer Lost His Faith Ft. Kolby Reddish We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    55 minutos
  • Blood Atonement: The Fatal Occult Ritual of Early Mormonism
    Jul 9 2025
    Deep in the archives of Mormon (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) history, you will find the dark stain of blood atonement. Rather than the sacrifice of Jesus being enough, some sins were too great and would have to be paid for by your own m*rder to gain salvation in the afterlife. Led by a history academic, Julia with @analyzingmormonism on instagram, we go through the ways in which early LDS leaders taught and practiced blood atonement. Also covered, are the ways current fundamentalist leaders still implement the horrific practice. Click here to watch on YouTube Follow Julia! IG @analyzing.mormonism TikTok @analyzing.mormonism YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@analyzingmormonism We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:02 Where and from whom Julia finds this information about Mormonism 00:06:21 Who could be blood atoned? What does it mean? 00:09:53 what is blood atonement 00:10:53 When the practice of blood atonement began and why bloodshed was required 00:11:27 Quotes from Joseph Smith Jr. referencing blood atonement 00:11:53 JOSEPH SMITH QUOTE 00:14:11 Sidney Rigdon taught about Blood Atonement 00:14:45 Temple ceremony blood atonement language & mimicking 00:17:05 Shelise found out about the secret gru*some temple penalty at 17 00:23:09 Brigham Young on B.O. equating baptism 00:24:53 Brigham Young on how to handle a cheating wife.... 00:28:39 How the Journal of Discourses created Utah culture 00:34:18 Victims of the Blood Atonement as listed in the book Wife No. 19 00:37:28 CW: Graphic race driven m*rder 00:38:34 The Oath of Vengeance in the temple ceremony 00:40:54 Additional names of victims 00:42:17 1889 manifesto addressing blood atonement 00:44:48 What the church today says about blood atonement 00:46:51 Was Warren Jeffs from the FLDS building a B.O. room in the temple? 00:51:05 Blood atonement in the LeBaron sect 00:54:18 Why what the Mormon church acknowledges about blood atonement is not enough 00:57:16 The Book of Mormon as a historical document vs a book of tales 01:00:01 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 8 minutos
  • I Was Sold by My Mother to an Elite Pedophile Network at 6
    Jul 8 2025
    Anneke Lucas was born in Belgium where, at the age of 6, she was sold by her mother to a s*x traff*cking p*dophile network for European elites. Her family’s cleaning lady ab*sed and gro*med her before colluding with a relative to pimp her out to the exclusive club for dr*g-fueled orgies. She would continue to be ab*sed and tortur*d as a s*x slave for years. She had never gone to police with her claims because she was scared into silence after watching kids getting k*lled by members as a "warning" to others. Anneke Lucas survived some of the worst atrocities known to humankind before the age of 12. After living in London, Paris and New York as a young adult, she moved to Los Angeles where she began therapy, yoga and meditation. Today, she is the founder and Executive Director of Liberation Prison Yoga, a non-profit organization based in New York. Now an advocate for other survivors, Anneke openly speaks about her experience. A story that truly emphasizes the power of hope, we dive into Anneke’s story, and healing journey. Click here to watch on YouTube Find and support Anneke: website: https://annekelucas.com book: https://store.bookbaby.com/book/quest-for-love1 instagram: @anneke.lucas We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** NO TIMESTAMPS AVAILABLE Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 25 minutos
  • Satanic Panic Accusations: Chinese Mormon Convert Loses Children for 25 Years (daughter explains)
    Jul 7 2025
    As a follow up to her incredible interview, we are joined today again by Lydia Knight, who grew up in a pioneer stock Mormon (LDS) family, but layered on top of that was a twisted, fabricated reality that her father was actually the leader of a Satanic cult who had violently abused her as a baby. Lydia’s mother said she had received revelations of these horr*fic things and Lydia’s grandmother capitalized on this by gaining love and adoration from the LDS church members by appearing as a savior to the ab*sed children. Kidnapped from Lydia’s father by her mother at 2 years old, she was told he was always searching for her so he could continue his Satanic practices. Not only was Lydia dealing with these imposed traumas, she was told if she ever broke the rules of Mormonism or told someone about her past, her whole family would be tracked down by the Satanists and killed. Fear and terror ruled her life until she finally decided to look for the evidence. What she found crumbled her entire reality and she began the search to reconnect with her father. Today we dive deeper into her father's perspective. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her initial interview here Find and support Lydia! IG: https://www.instagram.com/theshecenter/ Resources & Memoire Split: theshecenter.org/podcast Website TheSheCenter.Org LinkedIn linkedin.com/in/lydia-knight-tsc/ TikTok - The She Center TikTok - Cult Stories Youtube https://www.youtube.com/@TheSheCenter Facebook Fan Page https://www.facebook.com/CenterOfShe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 9 minutos
  • They Convinced Me My Father Was the Leader of a Torturous Satanic Cult
    Jul 7 2025
    Lydia Knight grew up in a pioneer stock Mormon (LDS) family, but layered on top of that was a twisted, fabricated reality that her father was actually the leader of a Satanic cult who had v*olently ab*sed her as a baby. Lydia’s mother said she had received revelations of these horr*fic things and Lydia’s grandmother capitalized on this by gaining love and adoration from the LDS church members by appearing as a savior to the ab*sed chiIdren. Kidn*pped from Lydia’s father by her mother at 2 years old, she was told he was always searching for her so he could continue his Satanic practices. Not only was Lydia dealing with these imposed traumas, she was told if she ever broke the rules of Mormonism or told someone about her past, her whole family would be tracked down by the Satanists and k*lled. Fear and terror ruled her life until she finally decided to look for the evidence. What she found crumbled her entire reality and she began the search to reconnect with her father. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch Lydia's follow up Q&A Find and support Lydia! IG: https://www.instagram.com/theshecenter/ Resources & Memoire Split: theshecenter.org/podcast Website TheSheCenter.Org LinkedIn linkedin.com/in/lydia-knight-tsc/ TikTok - The She Center TikTok - Cult Stories Youtube https://www.youtube.com/@TheSheCenter Facebook Fan Page https://www.facebook.com/CenterOfShe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:32 Lydia Shares the Background of Her Charismatic Grandmother (Rac*sm) 00:08:04 CW: Mentions of CA, Lydia Shares About Her Family Dynamics Amidst the Satanic Panic 00:12:41 CW: Mentions of CA & CSA, Lydia Explains the Satanic Panic of the 80's and Her Early Memories 00:16:45 CW: Mentions of R*pe, CA & CSA, Lydia Shares the Manipulation and Mental States of Her Mother and Grandmother 00:22:03 Lydia Shares the Harm Caused by Her Mother's Obscure "Revelations" 00:27:59 Lydia Shares About the Interactions Between Mormonism and The Satanic Panic 00:33:18 CW: CA, Lydia's Talks about Her Grandma's Manipulation and Need for Importance 00:39:09 Lydia Expands on Her ChiIdhood Isolation and Other Difficulties Growing Up 00:43:59 CW: Mentions of R*pe & CSA, Lydia Shares the About Her Mormon Baptism & the Made Up Stories of Her Ab*se 00:48:11 Lydia's First Time Out of The House Attending BYU & First Contact with Her Father 00:53:13 Lydia's Mother's Extreme Measures to Protect Her & Beginning to Doubt 00:58:16 CW: Mentions of R*pe, Lydia Decides to Uncover the Truth and Exposes the Lies 01:03:55 Lydia Confronts Her Mother and Grandmother & Contacts Her Father 01:07:28 Lydia's Beautiful Reunion with Her Father After 25 Years 01:11:24 Lydia's Healing Journey & Helping Others 01:16:26 Lydia Shares How She Ensures She Won't Repeat the Cult Cycle with Her Coaching 01:18:58 Final Thoughts & Lydia's "Linda, Listen" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 28 minutos
  • Cracking Open My "Prophet" Grandfather's Holy Book
    Jul 4 2025
    Sami's grandfather, who lived with Schizophrenia, compiled a 2422 page book of holy scripture in a failed attempt to start his own religion. Heavily inspired by Mormonism, yet drawing from almost every religion, it's full of many surprises. We can't wait to crack it open with all of you and find out what's inside. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the full interview with Sami and her father, Adrian, here Sami’s go fund me to get the book digitized Find Sami on social media: www.youtube.com/@mildwestsami IG: @mild_west_sami We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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    1 hora e 9 minutos